2025

With 2025 around the corner, we are all reflecting on this past year. What we liked and what we disliked. What we want to do differently for the upcoming year. This past year (or two) I’ve been feeling stuck. And I’ve been honing in on all the things I lack. The lack of money and success I wish I had, the lack of romantic relationships in my life, the lack of feeling as though I belong. But lately, life has reminded me that I can choose a way out. I don’t need to stay in the same stuck feeling. I look at my options and become overwhelmed. Like there's a fire starting in my core and I'm choking on the smoke as it rises into my lungs. Unable to breathe or focus as my head starts spinning like the globe I used to study on In my parents computer room. So Instead of embracing any changes head on, I've avoided them In fear. Not anymore. 2025 - The Year of Change. I will be focusing on myself more - becoming successful, and being the healthiest version of me. I want to feel comfortable being alone again. I want to feel independent and confident and vulnerable (that's a big one for me). I want everything that brings joy and connection to the human experience. A sense I haven’t been able to fully grasp in quite a while. And the only way to do that, is to grow and change. Shifting my mindset on the things I am grateful for. The people in my life. The foundation of my being. 

My sister is pregnant. We have a small family of four and this will be the first baby. I am so excited to see all the changes this little one will make. It’s crazy to see how much power and love can be held inside a baby that isn’t even born yet. How many life decisions will we make for this baby for them to have the best life possible? How many decisions and sacrifices did my own parents make for me and my life?

I have options. I don’t know which path I’ll take, but I enjoy knowing that I can now pave my own way - no matter how scary it may seem. I'm excited to see where this year will take me.